"Funny how that works..."

 Man if I don't find a job fucking soon...

On a positive note, spoke to my ex yesterday(through texts). She randomly messaged me to check how I was doing and such, I think she may have been a bit lonely as well considering the previous day had been valentines day. We had a nice civil adult conversation. I got a little emotional for a couple moments but I am resisting the urge to message her today and apologize for being emotional. She said I have to feel my feelings to be able to heal. It was nice to speak to her either way, I still hurt and miss her so knowing that she actually cares about my welfare means a lot.

..huh funny how that works, as I am writing this I get a message...I have a job interview next Wednesday.

Funny how that works.




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