"We build our own futures..."

I am not impressed, not even slightly.

I spent an hour last night deleting profiles from singles websites. I personally did not sign up for them, but they were profiles with my name, my picture and some of my interests. They all used Richard as my name instead of Rick, all the pictures were pictures that could have been “borrowed” from my Facebook page and all the profile information was common knowledge information like my favorite band and favorite pastimes. I have my suspicions on who it may have been, but I am not going to pursue it as I am sure they thought they were doing something good, I don’t think it was meant as a joke. Either way, it is way too soon for me to be thinking about something like that, I need to be single for a while...and no G.H. I don’t think it was you.

So I am 99% done packing, I have to spend a couple hours downstairs in the basement today then later on I have to spend a couple hours sorting comic books. After that, probably Sunday night or Monday I will be going around with a box and just picking up the stuff I had to leave out..like my coffee maker, medications, etc. After that I am done, 20 years of my life packed up in stacks of boxes and bins. I am not even sure how I feel about it like I HAVE to move and not because she is forcing me out or anything(although I suppose technically she is), we are just in each other's way. In the evenings once we are done with our own various tasks and chores we still sit on the couch and hang out, and we enjoy each other's company when we are just being lazy, but during the day when she is trying to renovate and I am trying to pack, we are definitely getting in each other's way and on each other's nerves. We both need to be apart from each other to be able to move on. I cannot “get over” her as long as we are still under the same roof. Moving day itself will suck, I am sure we will both shed some tears. We are going to miss each other a lot and those last few minutes when we realize it's time for me to get in the truck and go are going to be super hard. It sucks, it's the right thing but it sucks. If you ever actually read this T. I love you forever and I will always be there for you. Should you need me, call and I will be there for you never forget that. I know you are nervous about living alone, and yes it will be hard but you are never alone. You got this, we got this. You have been my biggest supporter through all of this, my biggest supporter for the last 20 years how could I not be there for you. We both will be OK. <3

OK enough depressing shit, the time for that is over. Only positive thoughts fucker, we build our own futures and they will be amazing.

Big Love.

R-